I'm having a mixed feeling now. Today is the last day of attachment at SCS @ Synergy. Should I be happy or should I be whatever, I really don't know. The past few weeks haven't been good. I spent most of my free time pondering over what I should not be thinking of. For a reason or another, I screwed everything up in the end. Urgh, super angry with myself! For now, I NEED to do a couple of things.

1. Sign up for Uni
2. Pass my TP tmr (This would be the best V Day gift ever!)
3. Interview on Monday (Hope it will go smoothly.)
4. Pursue my goals by April!

When these are all NEEDS, I cannot look back. I NEED to make them all come true!

Alright, I've got to finish as much of my report as I could before I make my way to Bedok HQ to surrender everything and go for the exit clearance. :)

For now, be happy everyone! & WAIT FOR MY GOOD NEWS! teeheehee :D

We set our goals here on this very day.
I hope the next time when we go back to the same place same spot,
we would have achieved something new in life!
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Life's unpredictable, like we always like to say. Since we know that life is so unpredictable, why not we do something about it than just whining and continue whining when something bad happens and start to live in regrets? Humans are just stubborn, I would say. Like Andrew's MSN nick, "When there is an opportunity out there, would you grab hold of it?" Something like this which is trying to convey the similar message across. For me, I will grab hold of the opportunity and go for it, meanwhile having the chance to continue pursuing my dreams. Everyone of us are just waiting for an opportunity to come along the way... Why not head out to look for one rather than waiting endlessly for it? And when it really comes your way, why forgo it? At the end of the day, choices are in your hands, and life is full of choices.

To set you thinking, I have thought of this question - What actually you want in life?

I don't know why this sudden change in me to have deep thoughts of life. Lately, I have been indulging in deep thoughts. Every time when I do a self-reflection alone in my room, I will have a question on mind, which is "What I want in life?" Like many naive girls out there, I dream of having a big car (at least a 3-Series), big house (a Condo of my own that has a good view, just like the one at Sentosa Cove), a good, caring, sincere and devoted hubby and adorable babies.

Visualising the lifestyle I will be living in when all these come true. Hmmmmm...

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On a lighter note, IPP is ending in 2 weeks' time, 13th Feb. I'm glad it's gonna be over pretty soon. No more early mornings. ( as early as 6am!) No more morning train rides from Ang Mo Kio all the way to Jurong East. No more long walks from Jurong East MRT Station to International Business Park. No more looking at zombies walking into the office early in the morning. (I realized IT people are as good as zombies.) No more lonely lunch breaks in the office. No more sticking my butt onto the uncomfortable office chair.

On a happier note, my life will resume pretty soon. I will be able to have more sleep till I feel like waking up. I will have more time to commit to pursue my dreams. I will have more time to catch up with my dear friends. I will have more time for myself & family. I will have more time to be under the sun for a good tanning session. (I'm very fair now. I don't like!) I will have the life I want it to be, eventually. Can you sense the excitement in me?! TEEHEEHEEHEEHEE!

Life has been good, I would say. I have been going through quite a bit these few months after I came back from Beijing. Everything happens for a reason & they are all blessing in disguise. I see many people from all walks of life succeeding in life. I see many people going on to the next phase of their life. I see how fragile life can be. To sum it all up, I NEED TO make 2009 a better year for me & my family. I NEED TO prove everyone wrong. I NEED TO make my dreams all come true!

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I don't know where to start updating from, thus this very general updates to sum all of them up. Nonetheless, I can still remember a few events that happen not too long ago...

On the eve of Chinese New Year, 10 of us booked a room at Fragrance Hotel to just chill out to have some booze and a game of BlackJack! Imagine my reputation was destroyed. I went up to the receptionist to ask for a room, together with Glenn and Gabriel. Gosh! Then the rest quietly sneak up to the hotel while we kinda distracted the receptionist. Hahaha.

A game of mahjong over at Con's place. Share the game with Ben. And I'm terribly sorry.. I made a mistake and have to pay a penalty charge of 10bucks to every player. We went bankrupt at the end of the game! Total damage of 100bucks! :(
(I realized I can't gamble! I always lose money. Urgh!)

CNY gathering over at Kah Hwee's place last Saturday. All my girlfriends were there - Huiling, Kejia, Shuling & Janelle. It all turned out fine! Steamboat, Left 4 Dead and BlackJack! Wonderful night :)

Just last night, Zai came over to pick me up after my appointment. Marina Square for Hong Kong Cafe along with a few others. Jian was there.. And I saw the sorrows in his eyes. I could feel how much pain he is going through in life due to a faield relationship, but life still goes on. There wasn't much I could say to comfort him, just a few words like "smile leh" & "don't like that la". Hopefully the next time I see him, he will be smiling away and gotten back on track with life. :)

Till then, I wish all of you a healthier life & best of wishes! :)